World’s Apart has always been a very emotionally charged song for me. It’s an emotional song to begin with, one of my favorites on one of the first CDs I ever owned, the song that I heard Jars play live before I went on a mission trip one summer that they dedicated to everyone going on missions, and the song that was played under the stars in an open field at the mission trip’s staging area, hundreds of kids and adults laying awake in tents, listening to the camp worship leader and one other guitar jamming out far past the usual good-night song time.
It’s one of the few songs that has made me weep. And it’s not going to get better. That concert where I heard Jars play it live was a amazing and I only got to go because AJ invited me and gave me an extra ticket.
When it came on the random mp3 playlist a few minutes ago, I wept. I wept not for AJ, I know where he is, but I wept because I miss him. Because I want to hang out just one more time. And mostly because I can’t even imagine how hard it is for Kellie and Eli.